Reckless

My nickname at work is "Reckless Kelly". I've come to realize that this recklessness, this attempt at doing what nobody else does, to go where nobody else goes, is a strength, but also a great weakness. I see this weakness most clearly when it comes to relationships. I can be very reckless by holding people up to a high, legalistic standard, and giving little or no grace.

God is working change in this weakness that is blessing me immensely. I have been given the grace to look out for and even minister to my current ministry partners, at least in small ways. As my gifting seems to be more of a "helping" nature, I am excited to see God grow me in these areas and work through my weaknesses. I am learning to be a blessing through practical skills I have learned, as well as taking the time as the Holy Spirit leads to pray for and encourage those around me. Praise be to God, He is working in a reckless, self-centered man! So, I desire to keep this weakness at the forefront of my mind, that I may be keenly aware of it and be on my knees for change, that God may be glorified.

Only God knows what lies ahead for ministry out on the field, but I do have hopes and desires. I know that when I was a student on the team going to Mexico, the team had much more gifted people than I. I think the same will be true if we end up being on a team to Papua New Guinea, which is our hope. I would love to be able to build up and encourage, as well as care for the practical needs of those who are more gifted than I am. That would be awesome!